I have always seen maself as an enthusiastic person. If u know me well enough, ull agree with me. When im into sthing..i give ma all. not 100% ..nor 101%..its 200%! It doesnt matter how small the task is...ill do ma best.
Im in a good position in ma life right now. I shouldnt complain. I have a steady job. I dont like it that much..but i should be thankful i even have 1. This is the first time that i have difficulties committing to it. It's tough cos i have no basic knowledge or what so ever in finance n billings n accounts n such. n ma work requires all that..detailed observation on numbers. n i HATE numbers. none of ma expertise or ma passion r being used in this work.
im not bragging..but i love ma passion in advertising. n im good at it cos i love it very much. i would so love to work on celcom's branding n marketing. but im being placed in global business in TM instead. ma mom said, u cant expect to work in a field u love, but to love the field u r working in. thats what im trying to do right now. it takes time. u hate numbers..n u r dealing with it now. u hate accounts..now u gotta love em. u hate m.excel..now u gotta make it ur bestfriend. u hate messy stuff...now u gotta organize what ever being dumped on ur table. its like that. n u gotta run while doing all of it!
aih...its one thing to realise ur lack of commitment n attn on work..its another thing when someone actually point that out to u! ma close colleague today did that. his exact words were "i could c u r taking forgranted" "u macam tak interested sangat" "u kerap lupa". i dont even remember ever being like that before this in ma life!! this is just so not me!
im not taking forgranted. i am not trying not to try to love this work. i am not forgetting stuff on purpose. i just happen to be like that in this matter. i love meetings. yes..weird..but i love it. i love the whole process of brain storming..getting feedbacks n insights from others n such...but here..i dont. maybe cos the whole system is different than where i was before..but..i just couldnt concentrate. not even during discussions!!
arrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i gotta get back on pace!! how to restart??
Im in a good position in ma life right now. I shouldnt complain. I have a steady job. I dont like it that much..but i should be thankful i even have 1. This is the first time that i have difficulties committing to it. It's tough cos i have no basic knowledge or what so ever in finance n billings n accounts n such. n ma work requires all that..detailed observation on numbers. n i HATE numbers. none of ma expertise or ma passion r being used in this work.
im not bragging..but i love ma passion in advertising. n im good at it cos i love it very much. i would so love to work on celcom's branding n marketing. but im being placed in global business in TM instead. ma mom said, u cant expect to work in a field u love, but to love the field u r working in. thats what im trying to do right now. it takes time. u hate numbers..n u r dealing with it now. u hate accounts..now u gotta love em. u hate m.excel..now u gotta make it ur bestfriend. u hate messy stuff...now u gotta organize what ever being dumped on ur table. its like that. n u gotta run while doing all of it!
aih...its one thing to realise ur lack of commitment n attn on work..its another thing when someone actually point that out to u! ma close colleague today did that. his exact words were "i could c u r taking forgranted" "u macam tak interested sangat" "u kerap lupa". i dont even remember ever being like that before this in ma life!! this is just so not me!
im not taking forgranted. i am not trying not to try to love this work. i am not forgetting stuff on purpose. i just happen to be like that in this matter. i love meetings. yes..weird..but i love it. i love the whole process of brain storming..getting feedbacks n insights from others n such...but here..i dont. maybe cos the whole system is different than where i was before..but..i just couldnt concentrate. not even during discussions!!
arrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i gotta get back on pace!! how to restart??
life will not be challenging if u always get wat you wanted. Overcome the challenge and you'll grow.. definately not taller though.. cheers