Gentleman is defined as a man of refinement. Those men i had lunch with were no where near there!!!

We arrived at our lunch table for 13 heads in Hilton PJ after more than 30mins of waiting for the guys. Dah la tak punctual!! The 'best' part, was when everyone who was sitted trying to decide who should go get their food first.

"Ladies first.." says the guys..

Tp before we gals could even get our asses off the chair..we turned and look at the other end of the table..n the guys were all GONE! So-called gentlemen!!!!

But the super best part of the lunch trip was the 2 SUPER-COOL-'AUNTIES'!!!! actually..they r not aunties la...older than me by 6 years je :P hehehe
But these 2 babes are the coolest chickas ever man!!! Even though they are married...they r just..so cool lah! You gotta hang around with em..then u'll know what i mean. :D loud, noisy, friendly, makan banyak, smart, everything la..all in 1! :D U guys r the best la Nurul & Aisha!

Thanx ladies! Had a super great time..not just cos the food was awesome..but u guys were too!! :D

I have an unbearable weakness. I cant look and watch my beloved ones or friends in trouble or in pain or sad. But, I don't know how to help! People say that, sometimes the company is more than enough. How far is that true?

I think I inherited this from ma dad. He is a guy that LOVES to help others. I guess that's y God loves him so much. I think he holds on to the concept where what goes around comes around. When you help someone, God will help you too. :) I'll be more than lucky if I inherited at least 1/10 of that lovely character of his.

But due to human nature, most people take advantage/for granted of others if that person is kind and understanding towards em. Isn't it true? I maself have came across people who treated me such way when I'm a little nice to them. Y? Please...appreciate the extra attention you get from someone. Do not take ppl for granted. You are lucky you know to get that special treatment!

Anyways, writing this blog cos one of ma dear friend is a lil tensed up with his work. I do hope that you are aware that there's solution around the corner, its just a matter of approaching it at the right time with the right support and luck. :)

Every dark cloud has a silver lining. Believe in yourself ;)

Today, I received a call from my lecturer/associate dean from MMU. "Your interview is on the 16th of February. Are you still interested?"

Sometimes it's hard when you have options to pick from in life. When I first came to TM, I didn't have many choices. I was placed in Sales in Kedah. But since I made early preparation and moved to KL, I worked ma ass off to get placement here in KL during ma 1st 3 days as a working adult. Finally got a placement in Global Business, Product Marketing, in TM HQ..in Menara TM.

It's ma 4th month here now. I'm finally..slowly getting the grip about ma work. I'm even gonna take tuition classes with ma boss starting next month ..every friday after work..just so I can get better understanding and learn faster. Surprisingly, even though most of the time I'm considered a fast learner, I'm not in Global Business. I'm doing numbers and accounts..and queries..and the worst..BILLING! I'm not interested in ANY!


The call I received today seems to be God's answer to ma prayers, of hoping to be able to work with sthing Im good at and have passion in. But, it means leaving TM. Can i do that?

People who knows me well will know I'll pick formal dinner against party. I can be considered quite formal. I enjoy dressing up in white collar to work. But ofcourse that doesnt mean Ive forgotten ma faided jeans and my should-get-a-new-pair-of-shoe-already Converse shoe. :P

I love the working environment here. Despite the fact that im doin sthing i didnt learn for the past 4 years, or even anything Im interested with...i find it challenging, in a good way. Because, I believe that behind every cloud, there's a silver lining. Im learning about the other perspective of a business organization that others dont see. Its difficult ofcourse, but its a learning process. I'm not saying I love it. But, I think I can go through it. I take it as a challenge to prove to maself that I can not only survive doing what i dont enjoy doing, but be really good with it. And the potential for me to rise up is higher here.

But at the same time, I would love to be doing sthing im good at, and have deep passion in. Branding. MMU can offer me that. I can teach and pass my knowledge about sthing I love to the next generation. But..where else can I go after becoming a lecturer? Ass. dean? Dean? Then? I feel like ..its a secured job for someone who just love it the way it is. I dont want to see my days as a routine..

But, there are so many things to consider to make this decision...too many that it aches ma head and heart to think. What should I do? Should I leave TM and be a tutor in MMU or stay on in TM and work in a field I dont enjoy in.

I have 3 weeks to decide the choice of ma life...

I always had this thing for metaphor and such. But it never crossed ma mind that a book..or specifically the book you hold and read tells your character!

Ma boss said that she assumed that I am from a wealthy background based on the book I brought and read on ma first day here in TM. When she told me that..i was like "WHAT???" Yeah i know what you are wondering..what could the book be? It wasn't like I was reading "How to manage your overloaded money". I was reading on branding! A branding book..with a super twisted cover which might lead you to think it's somewhat a SCARY storybook! :P

Then it lead me to wonder even deeper into this. It's actually true you know. You are what you read. It shows your character. It actually builds your character too! If you research those gossipers, i bet you will find LOTSSS of tabloids on their book shelf. :P Walk into any CEO office, and just browse through the books on his shelf. You will know what made him what he is.

So, last night before I shut ma eyes to bed..I was just thinking about my case. Every month i spend moneh on CLEO, Herworld, Female, Businessweek, Hot, F1 magazine, The Edge, T3. Ma books are dominated by 'design genre'. I have a handful on Islam, and some on psychology.

So what am I?

Im in office..I'm bored ..and lost..even though in reality i have work to do. :P

Since ive got nothing better to do or think or what not right now...lets discuss new year's resolution! hehehehehe. stupid i know..but i mean..come on..its our so-called-culture isnt it? :p

aaiight..my new year's resolution is.. (in the 'selamat-pagi-cikgu-primary-school-wish-tone')..

1. GAIN weight!! 3kgs in total..hehe. yeah yeah i bet u r screaming at ur pc screen since u cant scream at me. eh hello! its not easy for me to gain ok!!!

2. CUT DOWN on shopping, UNNECESSARILY.

3. DEFINE UNNECESSARY :p

4. go back HOME (penang) more often

5. take bus instead of flights :P

6. RM 10k in ma ASN by end of the year (logic ke? :p)

7. Be nicer (im not nice enuff ke?) and lose the 'MEANIE' title

8. Especially to GUYS! :p

9. use the credit cards only for EMERGENCY

10. DEFINE EMERGENCY :p


:D

You know...sometimes when we see a guy..tough..n he looks like he can carry a building with just one finger, always manage to blend in with any type of community, laugh out loud at jokes on himself..we forget that behind those so called macho characters, he has a lil boy inside him. We over-looked the fact that he has feelings..just like us gals..n sometimes get sensitive about things..

Hands down, I can be sucky with identifying if ive offended a guy friend or not with what i say or do. Its different with gals. There are rules to what u can tease em about n such. But with guys, we usually assume that we can say anything cos they r 'cool'! But we forget that just like us gals, they are not just a bunch of blocks...they also come in different shapes n sizes.

So where should the limit be? Would love to get your opinion ;)

Cheers!

Its so shameful to see how so many of us now a days have forgotten their roots. It's even much more shameful to know that there's that torn among ma roses friends!

I believe that we humans are all the same. Forget the skin colour cos at this age of time, we have dark chinese, fair malays n indians..mix here mix there. No certainty between religion and race either. There are muslim chinese, christian indians n so on. But one certainty is the culture. And thats the beauty we earn for being a specific race. The best part is we get to share it with other races too...just like Malaysians does.

So y are there ppl who still doesnt know how to appreciate their own culture. Instead, they are ashame of it!! What a waste!! I was watching a new TV show on 8tv yesterday, Trippin' hosted by Reena. Its so interesting to see em learning about Mah Mari(did i get that right?). Its an art of wood carving. Im not sure where it is really cos I only saw the last part, but its just an hour drive away from KL. But guess what?? No Malaysians have written anything about it. The only book about Mah Mari was written by a German!

I was shocked..and surprised..and ashamed..n even angry yesterday after being told about a friend..who looks down on her own culture! What is wrong with wearing baju kurung?? Does it mean u r backdated or conservative or as malay would put it, 'kuno'?? She said that she doesnt want to work in a malay company because she doesnt want to be a TYPICAL MALAY who works from 8-5 and wears BAJU KURUNG everyday! What the....???? Its an insult to even label TYPICAL MALAYS as that..

First of all....YOU are the one with the backdated mind, missy. Your mind is so shallow and u r judging others based on such a long- gone- culture in Malaysia. No one here works from 8-5 everyday! You should come here and see it for urself! There are ppl who work till 9-10pm at night..and who sacrifices their weekends too and sometimes even public hols!

It comes back to the individual. It is YOU yourself that create ur work culture. Not others. You can work in a malay or chinese or global company...and u r what u r. So dont blame the BAJU KURUNG..or the TYPICAL MALAY attitude to make excuses. It is YOU.

So my advice to everyone out there, appreciate what and who u r. Thats what makes you YOU. Just because u grew up or studied in overseas, doesnt mean u r someone else. If you are a Malay girl..u will be till u die. So dont be a copy-cat and or a fake! Learn to learn about your own culture..love your language. If you can learn western's why cant you learn your own?

Do not forget your roots. You are a lost soul without ur roots

Peace

After Aidiladha's celebration...ive been thinking a lot about the meaning behind the word 'sacrifice'. It's so subjective and in a way..it makes me think..what have i sacrificed so far..and what im about to in the future.

Since I was lil...ive always LOVEDDD fashion...im still very much in love with it. That is y i dont mind spending hundreds of bucks on just a working pants. It's not just about the brand..but the quality it carries with it. I wont buy 300bucks worth of khakis from CK that looks like it can be found in Padini for just 79bucks. Ma mom always reminds me that..what ever u buy..make sure it looks the price u paid for it if not more. So obviously..im more than willing to sacrifice ma MONEH for ma image.

But what most ..or should i say all of u..dont know is that..ive always wanted to be a fashion designer. :)

When i was younger..i had a notebook where ill sketch my clothing line. Im not sure if the notebook is still around..but yeah..i had that magical book. Ofcourse it looked like a 7 year old art work..but it was full of passion. Even till today..i still have that passion in me. I love modern fashion sense but with a touch of english taste here n there. Unfortunately, i had to sacrifice that dream..cos of ma religion. I admit im not the best muslim uve ever met, not the most conservative one..or the best dressed muslim...but i try to stay in line with at least the basic rules and understanding of Islam.

I'm not saying as a muslim u cant be a fashion designer. ofcourse u can. the beauty of islam is that it doesnt stop u from doin things u wanna do..as long as u follow the guidelines God has provided. however, due to influences of our world culture..im into ..how do i put it..emm..more modern, less conservative..GLOBAL outfits..where it can be 'physical'. hahahahahhaa..er..yeah. :D still blur? ok..halter necks..shorts..low waist pants. :P

To the none muslims that are wondering y its againts Islam..reasons y are because..when u create sthing that's wrong in islam..eventho its not for urself..it is still wrong..n thats not just it...u will also later on have to carry the burden of the sins of those who wears/uses ur creations. Eg. drugs. Im not taking em..but im selling em. Its still wrong cos u r encouraging it.

Anyways, im settling down with the fact that those type of outfits are just for ma knowledge. hehehehe. But ma interest in fashion remains the same. It hasnt minimized or anything. Im still very updated with whats new n whats not. (though im not so much a trend follower...if its the flower season..i wont wear flowers :P i dont like to blend with the crowds)

So..thats one of ma very very small unknown (or now known :p) sacrifice. :D But i believe with every sacrifices, comes opportunities. Ive learn to fall in love with branding and advertising..a field im good in and definitly will be able to work with.


Never be afraid to sacrifice..cos ull never know what's awaiting u

HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So..what's so great about 'new year' celebration? This year in Malaysia, we dont have official/formal new year celebration to respect the Aidiladha celebratrion and also the victims of the flood incidents in South Malaysia.

For me, personally, new year is just another year..any other year..the differences are in the number and yourself. 2006..to 2007..just add another digit at the end. That is all. The most important thing is youself. Everyday can be a new year if you learn from mistakes and past experience and change to be better. The whole 'enter into a new no. of year -officially' is just a culture of life. It will remain the same..n no changes if you urself dont do anything about it.

New year..new life. You start another phase of your life. But, y are ppl 'celebrating' it by getting drunk and over-partying till at some point they r not themselves? It's just so sad how ppl define 'new year celebration' so shallowly. You make new year's resolution n such...but u start ur new year in such manner.
Think about it...

I think the best way is to thank God first! Cos He gave us a chance to live another year. Next is to be with your loved ones :)

Happy New Year!