Today...i was being accused for being a dumb-footie-fan by a colleague of mine. Let me paste what he said..

"And to all of u out there............heres something u don wanna miss. i really hate it when there some other gals, who pretend that they know about footie, but the fact is they dont! they just know the popular team, the hensem player, and some more they dont even got a clue about football. ask them it they know the praise "man from behind", "offside","professional fouls". they'll say "we dont need to know that". BUT i do have to know, then u'll understand why some people love different team.

a guy writing this blog called bitchingblog..........how men bitch about thing, he said:

there are 3 group of gal fans.........

1. One who know what footie is, what goes around, what they really doin. this type of chick is the one footie lovers will fall in love with. cause they know how to compare between ronaldinho and christiano ronaldo!

2. One who know the image of footie, these are the chicks who know where is beckham now, where christiano ronaldo from, where henry from, what jersey they are wearing, cause they all cute. but they no shit about reall footie.

3. one who know footie cause they always hanging aroud with their frenz at hartamas square, where when people start cheering, they followed! this chick knows shit! some more even worst, they support the team their bf supported. they got no clue!

so aina.........where do fall in? 1?.........2, most probably.....3 is definitely not cause u r still single aite? but 1...............NO WAY! dont pretend like you know all this stuff. my advice......just observe!
"

Let me make it clear for all u peeps who thinks u have u the freedom to judge which category i fall into.

I WAS a fanatic fan of Man Utd. Ma plain n very spacious room wall was covered in Man Utd's posters n such. I would wake up early in the morning to watch footie..hidingly cos ma dad would scream at me when he catches me. I would argue in class with ma classmates about football matches. I mixed well with guys esp the Man Utd fans cos we have things in common to talk about. N by saying that, our discussion topics doesnt cover Beckham's new hairstyle (I do..but with gals la :p) or gossips on their love life.

Came to MMU..still a fan. I remembered during world cup..4 years ago..I transfered to UIA for while..n ma block's foodcourt was shared with guys. the tv is at gals side..but when it comes to football matches..the guys would just come in n watch.. n ill b the only gal there. crazy! (in uia land :p)

I admit now im not that updated about football anymore as ma priorities move to elsewhere. However, im still updated about matches n the results when i miss the matches. I mite not know the new players thats in man utd anymore..but i just love their games no matter what. n ma loyalty stays with em. I wont bitch about other teams if they played well and deserve compliments. Cos for me..at the end of the day..i watch footie cos of the beauty of the game

ronaldinho vs christiano ronaldo?
ronaldinho is a superb player! he never dissappoint me..n i envy the fact that he stayed on in barcelona even when he got offered for real. ronaldo? perasan bagus..n belum ape2 dah announce that he's leaving man utd for real madrid when in fact man utd wasnt goin to release him. bodo! a performer more than a footie. a man utd player i dont favour. however im not denying he can be pretty good with the ball.

and in football..theres no such thing as "we dont need to know that". its a non-stop-- question arena! "why???" "what??" "who??" "when??"...am i rite?

so..which category do i fall into?

there r more to football than the 'jerseys'

I finally feel like an assistant manager. Attended training till 4. Instead of opting the option of goin back home, I went back to the office to do some work, till 8pm! Usually I dont even have much work to do, but that night, I felt so peaceful doin ma work and everything just seem to fall into places. Had a great chat with ma manager and ma colleague, Zool whom I left the office with. I guess Kak Nani is used to goin back around that hour. We chit chat while dipping our hands into ma container of M&Ms! :D

It was tiring, definetely. But when i walked to the pantry at 7.30pm on the 22nd floor of Menara TM, i was mesmorized by the beauty of KL view. The street lights and everything.

To my surprise, the traffic at 8pm from Bangsar to KJ is much more heavier than at 5.30pm! There I was thinking, "ala..kejap je..sure tak jam"..how i was wrong! I guess everyone that left their offices late had the same thinking as I did :p

Got back, did ma freelance till 12am. Had to force ma eyes open to do it, and I didnt even get to completely complete it.

Went to bed with a super duper exhausted body and mind, but I was very satisfied. Cos at that moment, I knew "it starts today"

Gals love being pampered. When its OVER pampered..we stamp em with "SPOILT" on their forehead. But in reality, who spoils em?

Ive had guy friends who will complain how spoilt their gals are. How the gals would get anything and everything that they want. Ok. Blame the parents for giving em all the materials such as moneh, cars, credit card n such. As a bf, whats ur role? Continue spoiling her? Exactly. What is it?

I personally think, to make someone who aged 30 to grow up from acting 18 is to provide em with 'growing up space'. How? Easy. When u get everything u want, u tend to take forgranted. Eg, when u r sick, u know someone will come running to u n bring u to the clinic n make sure u eat the right food..at the right timing n make sure u get enuff rest. Not just that, he or she will come n check on u every hour! Im not saying u should ditch all that n let her/him die n rot by himself, but to give em a chance to take care of emself u know.

Ok. Different perspective. What if you are not around? How will he/she survive? Die and rot? In a way, when u learn to give em a lil space to 'grow up', they will b able to handle such situations when ur assistance cant be met. Dont u think so?

I know u r trying to be caring..and sensitive. We are all like that. N we want that too. But like i said...if u continue over pampering her/him, he/she'll never be able to stand on her 2 feet..hence will be dependable on u on everything! n at the end of the day mite even take forgranted of u.

Give space. Give chances to learn. Trust me..they'll appreciate it one day. :)

Patriotism is defined as "love for country and willingness to sacrifice for it". Whats your definition?

I personally think that there r so many ways for u to show ur love n support towards our beloved country. Sometimes, the smallest thing means more. I mean, after all ..sthing is better than nothing. Most of the time, its not to show ppl how patriotic u r, but to prove it to urself.

For eg. I'm a super huge fan of Toyota and Mazda cars. But i still keep ma loyalty towards Proton. Despite the weaknesses in Proton, i believe that it will improve..and starting to already.

I dont know what you think about Malaysia, but to me, it can be considered as one of the safest country in the world. I cant be anymore thankful than this. We dont have any natural disasters ..except for tsunami la..n our government is pretty good..our economy still have room for improvements..we r very harmony. Where else can u find a country that has 3 major races..who gets along very well?
I get up everyday feeling thankful that i'm a Malaysian.

U dont have to be a politician to show how patriotic u r. U dont have to stand in front of a crowd to state your opinion about patriotism or any improvements that should be made on Malaysia. Everything starts somewhere. You can start by just telling 1 person..n trust me, word of mouth is the best method to get ur msg across to the entire world! (how do u think google got where it is now anyways?)

All im saying is that, we should stand firm on our ground. Be proud of who we r. Be thankful. :)

Our deepest sympathy to Eeleng and family as they lost their beloved father today, 4th December 2006 at 3+am.

Love ya gal..

Happy Feet is a must-watch movie!!! It's definetely the best animated movie EVER!! EVER!!!

I love mumble. we should learn from him. During the first quarter of the movie, when mumble was still small n being excluded from their singing activities cos he cant sing, it touches me. Cos at some point of ma life, i felt being left aside by friends. Even now..at times i still feel it. Having an exceptionally weird height for an asian gal, stimes ppl treat me as if im some alien!

Anywyas, back to mumble, he used his strength in the best way possible. N to those who has very few friends just cos some community cant accept u...dont give up! there are so many out there who will appreciate u. u just gotta be patient n find em. :) bottom line, be who u r. appreciate what u have :)

be mumble. :D

I got so carried away with the whole priority of words and actions in life that i ran away from ma point of even writing the topic on Action Vs Words.

In "guys suck with language skills" I received a comment saying 'action speaks louder than words' when i said that guys gotta improve on their language skills cos they stink at that. I focused on proving that words r just as important n forgot about action.

Anywyas, what im trying to say is that..to Dennis and the guys out there..yes..action speaks louder than words. Thats y God created deaf and numb ppl. cos they can survive through their actions. Ma point is..good that u guys realise that action speaks louder than words.

We girls r not expecting flowery and poetry words from u. we need action! attention! U dont have to say "I care" everyday..but a lil gesture of leaving a flower on the table or a peck on the cheek says more than that.

In today's generation..no words can be trusted 100%. U cant even trust ur own voice at times! Have u ever said "i hate you!" but behind those harsh words, u actually meant the opposite? u can lie to others with ur twisted words, but u cant lie to urself. Hence proving the power of mind.

Ok im getting all mixed up already. :P
But what im trying to say is that, i was wrong. Actions do speak louder than words. However words on the other hand r dependent on actions to prove it right. but to have a prosperous life...u should have both placed as priorities. :D

Im writing based on the comment received in the previous topic. Looks like someone's ego got shattered. :P calm down!

Which is more important? Actions or words? I think they are the bread and butter to sustain a healthy life. U cant live without one of it.

Someone said this to me..

"There is an English idiom that says "Actions speak louder than words". We say, we think and believe things that we want to be true. Actions on the other hand are rarely controlled by our thoughts (unless we develop them as habits). This is why our actions are a better mirror of ourselves and our ideologies than what we tell/believe about ourselves.
Actions take time to reveal personal ideologies. Until then words have to be trusted. I have noticed that words influence (or pollute) my perception of the person"

It's true that action speaks louder than words. But our actions r controlled by our mind. There's no logic to doing sthing without even a glance thru of thought in ur head first. Even when u r reaching out to get a bread, without realising it, u actually told ur mind that u were about to do so. So i totally dont agree when he said actions are rarely controlled by our thoughts.

However, there are spontaneous actions that might lead u to think that it wasnt controlled by ur thoughts. It was in a sudden..n at fast pace..thats y u think that way. But in reality, it was in ur head, thats y ur mind could send out signals to ur body parts to reach out or do sthing.

Ok..words. Words are the backbone of trust i would say. Then again since words n actions cant live without each other..somehow it will still come back to the fact that u gotta keep ur words n ur actions in line.
U cant say "ok" n not do it. Guys r good with that. Thats y they can answer "action speaks louder!" when i say they suck with language skills! hahahaha

To be honest, no one is great with anything. Life is a learning process. You make mistakes..u learn from it. Actions doesnt stand on its own..it needs the words to back it up. Words cant stand on its own too, it needs actions to prove it right.

So there is no such thing as action speaks louder than words or that words speaks louder than actions. u need BOTH!

so guys..polish up ur language skills!! u have got no excuses anymore! hehehe

i cant speak on men's behalf since im not em. but women tend to compare emself with men when comes to thinking. am i rite? oh come on....dont lie to urself.

I question maself sometimes.."y r men so difficult???" "y cant they get the hint?" "y they can be so heartless..n not even realise it??"
i talked to a guy colleague about it just now. even though his answers were vague..but it led me to go deeper on this topic.

Why do we think differently? Here's y.

Men and women do think differently, at least where the anatomy of the brain is concerned, according to a new study.

The brain is made primarily of two different types of tissue, called gray matter and white matter. This new research reveals that men think more with their gray matter, and women think more with white. Researchers stressed that just because the two sexes think differently, this does not affect intellectual performance.

In human brains, gray matter represents information processing centers, whereas white matter works to network these processing centers.

The results from this study may help explain why men and women excel at different types of tasks, said co-author and neuropsychologist Rex Jung of the University of New Mexico. For example, men tend to do better with tasks requiring more localized processing, such as mathematics, Jung said, while women are better at integrating and assimilating information from distributed gray-matter regions of the brain, which aids language skills.


So, now u understand y they just cant understand when we say "honey..its raining" n hope for em to get an umbrella for us..but they didnt. they suck in language skills!

but that shouldnt be an excuse for u to be self-absorbed. guys should think a lil more outside their comfort zone. where as the ladies must stop thinking too deep into everything..n that applies to maself too.

stay cool peepsss

peace!

Abis sudah rumah terbuka.

It was pretty tiring..but fun overall. I did an open house for raya yesterday at ma semi-furnished condo. Menu was:

Rendang ayam
Rendang daging
Sambal kacang
Nasi impit
Lasagna (beef)
Chickenball + mushroom pasta
Salad
Walnut brownies
Moist chocolate cake (Wan bawak)
Raya cookies
Sirap

The traditional food i ordered from a lady in uptown. It cost me a lot ..but it was good la. But the sad part was that...ppl didnt really it it surprisingly..cos they loved ma lasagna! hahahahahaha. damn..i might as well spend the money from those food n make more lasagnas instead. But it was a tiring thing la doin lasagna. i started cooking at 10pm on Sat..n slept at 4am!! got up at 7am on Sunday to cook the pasta sauce..then go collect the rendang from uptown..head to shafiq's house to bake the lasagnas...went back to set the place up n all. memang penat!

First to arrive...Dennis n Hafiz. They eat n watch Hitch with me n eeleng before Tariq n the twins appear. Then the crowd started coming after that la..around 2 gitu.
It was crazy when everyone yg expected to b there all gathered la. Noisy gila2 punya :P but it was fun. The guy enjoyed the 'pink-bikini' view from the balcony which faces the swimming pool. oh izzati n fifa joinned em too!! gila :P

by the time everyone left it was 4+. Next on the schedule will be to CLEAR things up. arrrrhhh..i hate doin dishes!!! Thank you shafiq for helping me out with that!!!
There are loads of left overs of rendang n all. Lasagna ada 2 pieces left, omar took one..n khairi took the other one just now. By the time i clear everything n take ma dinner..i was so about to K.O. slept at 9pm last nite n got up at 6am just now. hahahaha

it was fun as a whole. but dont think ill be doin for a big group like that anymore. if i had too..ill make sure i get assistants..n ppl to chip in cos it cost me A LOT! :P

I have always seen maself as an enthusiastic person. If u know me well enough, ull agree with me. When im into sthing..i give ma all. not 100% ..nor 101%..its 200%! It doesnt matter how small the task is...ill do ma best.

Im in a good position in ma life right now. I shouldnt complain. I have a steady job. I dont like it that much..but i should be thankful i even have 1. This is the first time that i have difficulties committing to it. It's tough cos i have no basic knowledge or what so ever in finance n billings n accounts n such. n ma work requires all that..detailed observation on numbers. n i HATE numbers. none of ma expertise or ma passion r being used in this work.

im not bragging..but i love ma passion in advertising. n im good at it cos i love it very much. i would so love to work on celcom's branding n marketing. but im being placed in global business in TM instead. ma mom said, u cant expect to work in a field u love, but to love the field u r working in. thats what im trying to do right now. it takes time. u hate numbers..n u r dealing with it now. u hate accounts..now u gotta love em. u hate m.excel..now u gotta make it ur bestfriend. u hate messy stuff...now u gotta organize what ever being dumped on ur table. its like that. n u gotta run while doing all of it!

aih...its one thing to realise ur lack of commitment n attn on work..its another thing when someone actually point that out to u! ma close colleague today did that. his exact words were "i could c u r taking forgranted" "u macam tak interested sangat" "u kerap lupa". i dont even remember ever being like that before this in ma life!! this is just so not me!

im not taking forgranted. i am not trying not to try to love this work. i am not forgetting stuff on purpose. i just happen to be like that in this matter. i love meetings. yes..weird..but i love it. i love the whole process of brain storming..getting feedbacks n insights from others n such...but here..i dont. maybe cos the whole system is different than where i was before..but..i just couldnt concentrate. not even during discussions!!

arrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i gotta get back on pace!! how to restart??

Was just pondering about life before i dozzed off last nite..

I know this girl..she's the literal meaning of 'born with a silver spoon'! Welcomed to the world by a very caring and pretty wealthy family, she has been brought up with maids and drivers all her life, even before she started walking! Food and education has never been a problem in the family.

It is normal for a teenager to be rebelious during their teen life. She didnt escape it either. However, i envy the fact that even though her parents are well off...they lead such a normal life as an average Malaysians (exceptional for the cars though :p)
She led a normal teenager life too. While other teenagers were bz talking about boyfriends and Guess handbags and the latest fashion trend, she made her peace with her mom's advice "take a step at a time. If u jump, ull never be able to appreciate it". True enough. I'm glad she stuck to that advice. Even though now she dresses up in branded outfits and drinks branded coffee..she definetely knows how to appreciate em.

Graduated with good grades from a private uni here, she's currenly working in one of the well known companies in Malaysia. Had hoped to continue studying abroad, but postpone it due to financial assistance.

Living in hectic city and driving a luxurious car at such young age, she doesnt deserve to complain about life. She has the life many other girls are hoping for.

I'm glad i know her

I always...ALWAYS have things in mind to write. Everytime i see sthing interesting or experience sthing to be remembered..i always tell maself " I am sooooo gonna post that on the blog!" but i never did in the end. No! not cos i procrastinate! I dont have internet connection at home la! *excuses* :P

Lets see...soooo many things came by n gone d for the past few weeks. It has been a month+ now in TM. Finally got a laptop, own table, own drawer, own rubbish bin! Starting to mix better with the colleagues too. They r most of the time pretty serious..98% of the time facing the laptop..looking allll serious n tensed...unlike me..who will be smiling n giggling as ill be chatting! hahahahahhahaa. what? i have work la! stop assuming things! work hard..play harder! :D hehe

Finally..finally got to do sthing i love!!!! I applied to do freelance copywriting in an agency in Damansara..n guess what? I'm in!! hehehehe. I think he hired me cos i said "it's not about the payment..." :))

It's not thaaaat easy. Im still not familiar with the format n such..but getting the hang of it. Nina, the project manager has been very supportive in guiding me n all. Hopefully i can do better in the next project and can sustain ma position there. :)

i think the reason y our world now a days is so crazy n upside down is because nearly everyone..cant control themselves. everything they WANT will be theirs no matter how they get it..or who they hurt along the way.

lets not get into politics cos clearly politics now a days r full of selfishness and most of em r not fighting for others but their own ego. even marridges..what happened to loyalty?? u cant get everything u want. u gotta loose some to gain sthing. n u should always consider others' feelings in the process of getting what u want..especially if they r ur loved ones. i know we can never satisfy everyone..and at some point u should put urself before others...but come on man..when u put urself before anyone else at ALL times..u r just plain cruel n selfish n u cant lie to urself n say u r not.

oh yeah..n what happened to gals now a days?? even when u know that guy is already in a relationship..u r still pushing to be 'someone' in his life. look gal...try putting urself in that girlfren's/wife's shoes..n imagine if some gal doin what u r doin now to ur guy..dont tell me u wont b pissed off?? u will definetely call her names wont u? so cut it out la. haiyooo. control urself.

remember..u cant get everything u want. the best discipline is to be able to have self-control. good luck!

wow..4 more days to the end of Ramadhan. :( A lil sad..but also excited for the arrival of Syawal. :D Hehehe..ive lost 4kgs since i moved to KL..and im relying 101% on raya celebration to gain that weight back!!!

Anyways..i wanna wish all the muslims out there..especially ma friends a very happy n blessed Aidilfitri. I would like to apolagize if i had done anything accidentally or not to hurt ur feelings in any way possible.

I do hope u guys will c the real meaning behind the whole celebration rather than concentrating on the fooooddd n fire crackers ..n 'duit raya' only. :)

To the non-muslims..Happy hols!! :)

Finally went to the clinic yesterday in menara to get checkups since ive been coughing badly for the whole week n feverish. They gave me super strong drugs..that rite after i took it last nite..i knocked off immediately.

Im in the office now..n feeling super drowzy. I cant even walk in a straight line. huhuhu. Lets hope i get better by evening..

isnt that very true? i still remember a week before attending TM Training in Jalan Semarak for 2 weeks..i was just so freaking reluctant to go. I was judgmental about the training n all i could think of was that it is just a waste of time. How fortunate that i was wrong..

I made so many GREAT frens in that training. I learned to work in a group.be patient..be humble..mix with so many different types of ppl from so many types of backgrounds. Even tho i wished the washroom was in a much better condition...i do miss those times.

Now the 64 of us r scattered across malaysia. some are placed south..north..east west..everywhere lah. im thankful i got transfered here in KL..not just KL..but specifically in Menara TM. even tho ma workline has nthing to do with ma edu bg or ma passion or any of ma expertise..but i have great frens here. i still remember the time when i was trying hard to get placement here..how supportive they all were. Its surprising cos we just knew each other..but everyone was being so supportive n caring. Thanx guys....n galss.. hehe.. :)

With all ma love and respect for u peeps..i wish u guys all the best..n thanx for the wonderful frenship, G64! :)

It amazes me how life can be. I made a friend from the 2 week TM Training i had to go thru before entering the working life here in TM. He is a very nice guy..smart and ..em..i dunno..just nice to hang out with. I dont find him thaaaaat handsome..or thaaaaat tall (hahahaha)..but..it amazes me how ppl can fall for him so easily.

during the 2 weeks training..a lot of gals had crushes on him. i tot that was it. i was tryng to peacefully pray in the 'surau' just now in ma dept when a lady whom i havent introduced maself to yet asked me if im from his batch instead of ma name. wow....popular nyeeeee. they were talking about how handsome n smart looking n metrosexual yadi yada...but i just dont c all that somehow. heheahaha. life can b so funny.

ladies..dont judge a book by its cover.

12.25pm...ma emotion turned upside down. Dalam sekelip mata i felt sad from being all normal. Sthing is bugging me..but i dunno what. Despite the fact that ma hp is jammed due to many smses that i had to send out to announce ma move from maxis to celcom no...i just feel sad lah. aaiiihhhhhhhhhhh....i hate this crappy feeling... n no one around to help me mend it either...

After going thru a surprising VERY FUN (n this time im not beng sarcastic) 2 weeks-TM-training in Multimedia College in Jalan Semarak, I finally got a placement in TM.

"Anda hendaklah melaporkan diri kepada...... pada 1 Oktober 2006 di ..., Alor Setar, Kedah.."

WHAT???? that was ma first reaction when i openned the letter before leaving MMC. I literally cried in the car cos i couldnt believe ma effort of being well-prepared for working life by moving to kl and renting a place n all (cos during the interview they said ill b placed here)..will be eating ma ass back.

it took dignity and pride to walk into TM HR office for 3 days in a row..meeting so many managers..just so i can be placed in KL instead. Finally 4th day, i got a placement as Global SPOC in Global Business under Product Marketing in Menara TM. Even tho its no where near to Branding...i accepted it anyways since its here.

So far..i havent done any work yet. Getting briefs here n there regarding work..but i guess it takes time to learn about it esp when u r the middle person between sales and oversea clients. but im very up to the challege. chewah!

Hidup TM! (err...)

Lately, everything and i mean everything r done through sms. U can communicate with your frens, send pictures (MMS), vote for your favourite reality show candidates, get divorce, check your savings balance, blackmail and fwd jokes and what ever not through the power of SMS. Its such a wonder to think how this small little technology of text appearing at you 2x1" handphone screen can play such a big role in our lifes.

Im not gonna talk about EVERYTHING regarding sms..but just this particular issue I am not very happy about. I was just observing ppl and the world of SMS for quite sometime now. It amazes me how ppl get exicted when they get sms on jokes and rumours or what not and willingly spend ringgits to fwd it to others. It never entered their head it is wrong or what not cos "it makes no harm".

Ok then. One day, i received a SMS from a friend that wrote,

"Amanat dr Mekah: Penjaga Maqam Nabi telah bermimpi bertemu Nabi Muhammad SAW dan baginda berpesan kepadanya agar umatnya kuat beribadat kerana bumi ini sudah tua dan kiamat hampir tiba. Sebarkan sms ini kepada semua saudara islam kita"

I witnessed a conversation regarding smses like this when i was in KL one day. Tell me what is wrong with that SMS? Would you have fwded it? If yes y? if not, y?

Ma first reaction reading that sms was goose bumps all over ma body. We dont know how true is it that there is this person out there in Mekah who dreamt what was written in that SMS. We dont. How far is it true we will never know. But why cant we c the msg behind that sms? Isnt it true that the world is getting older? Isnt it true that Nabi Muhammad SAW had reminded us regarding this even before he left us? I think the signs on the end of the world are getting clearer each and every single day. And it is sad how ppl can just ignore em.

Ok..next point. Whats wrong with fwding that msg? It didnt say "You will be punished/ sinful for not fwding this to more than 10 ppl", did it? It just said "pls fwd it to muslims". I dont think there's anything wrong with that, personally. The sms meant well..and we never joke about religion.

What sadden me was that... Those jerks who've been smsing chain smses on Islam/Muslims had killed the trust and faith of many Muslims about the sincerity of msges meant to be sent through this method of technology. Even though its just a simple reminder, they quickly assume "it is wrong to fwd as it is a chain sms". Pls, we are educated ppl. I think we should think deeper if its a chain sms or not. Someone wise that i know told me that she wouldnt fwd smses on religion if it is stated "pls fwd it". I think what matters most is the msg after that. there's nthing sinful by saying "pls fwd it". its sinful to say "if not...bla bla bla".

so ma advice to those who wants to send thoughful thoughts and advices or reminders on our religion through SMS, i would strongly advice you to just type your msg and not add "pls fwd it" in the msg. I think that should come from within the receiver him/herself. This way, we can keep the TRUE and SINCERE smses on religion CLEAN. :)

P.S- I got goosebumps reading the sms because just a few nites before...i dreamt of the end of the world. I woke up feeling terrified to ma core. So do not take forgranted or misjudge ppl's experience.

Thats right! I cant stand BIMBOsss!!! "omg omg omg~~!!" "Everyone was looking at me" "Do i look nice in this..this? n this? what about this?" OH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!

One of the reasons i dont watch Hot Chick..cos i just cant stand the sight of bimbos. I do have a few close friends who are 1..still under control though. But that 1 main thing i just HATE the most about bimbos are the fact that they KNOW that they r pretty/attractive..and they keep TALKING about it! geeeeeeeeeesssssssshhhhh!

When a guy looks at me..first thing that comes into ma head would be "did the ketchup spill on ma shirt?" or.."did i zip up ma pants?" or .."what?? never seen a tall gal??"..u know..stuff like that. out of 30 times..i think maybe once (or not) that i will think "he's checking me out alrite". Then again..im not the most attractive person uve met..so im just cool if ppl turn their heads to look at me.

But ..these pretty gals..*big sigh*...yes..i admit..u r attractive. n u KNOW that YOURSELF. but y must u act as if it is sooooooooooooooooo sinful that other ppl r looking at u cos u r pretty?? or even worst..y do u always think that ppl are ALWAYS looking at u? n that u r the main attention of the universe???
Exactly..2 types of bimbos.

1. I-dont-like-ppl-who-wants-to-get-to-know-me-cos-i'm-pretty type
Ask urself this very simple ques. When u look at a handsome guy..what is ur first reaction. DONT LIE to me and urself and answer stupidly "his watch"! I bet it will b his looks. Who in this world who doesnt like looking at gorgeous ppl? Ok..doesnt it just make sence that u would love to know more about that person? Ive seen this gal..who goes head over heels about a guy in a magazine..whom she finds 'cute'..and ..she was just crazy over him..hoping to get to know him n such. based on what? LOOKS aint it? Its just human nature. So y the heck r u making such a big deal when ppl wanna get to know u? Y must it always b "he wants to get to know me cos im pretty". It shows 1 thing. U r not confident of urself..anything else in urself but ur looks. thats y that idea is the first to pop into ur silly head!

2. Im-the-pretties-gal-in-the-room
What the....??? A perfect malay word for it will be 'PERASAN'. self-absorbed. everything and all u can think of is u. Even when ppl r looking AT YOUR DIRECTION..u straight jump into conclusion that he's checking u out. When u walk into the mall, u feel as if everyone turn their heads n gaze at u while u attract the attention like no one else has. Again..what the..??? What the heck is playing in ur head u freak?? Just cos u r from a mix parentage family..or fair..or blonde..or put on fake blue contact lenses..must u act like a fool n think that u r the centre of attention!

N to answer to that question playing in ur head, NO, i dont have probs, mentally, physically or emotionally with pretty ppl. Ive been around so many of em..and ive been with those who have amazing humble attitude too. They make u feel like u blend in..n that looks are not the main thing in anything. It's the beaty inside that means most. N ma bestest fren in the world is the best example of that.

I just can't stand bimbos. Thats all. Remember gals, its not always about u. N besides, looks will not b with u forever. Its what inside that means most. so CUT IT OUT!

"Happy 22nd PRINCESS Aina". I had that written on my own birthday cake for a birthday party i worked ma ass off to have. The day before, I worked my way to TESCO with Ita to purchase groceries for the party, went to the market and then ordered the cake. Tiring day, but i guess its ok.

Party day. A day before ma bday cos apparantly it is not covenient to have ma bday party on the bday day (Sunday). Fine by me. Woke up real early in the morning to accompany my mom to the hospital, 1 of those places in my "DONT BRING ME THERE" list, for x-ray and doc appointment on her fractured leg. Was there till about 11..came back, open ma shoes, went it to get my car key, drove out to the market..alone. Bought more things to cook for the party. Heavy. Hand aching. Its ok.

Got back, eat late brunch with ma mom while i watch Mrs Doubtfire, head to the kitchen to make jelly and pudding with ma mom, tired..went up to chat for a few mins..came down..watch tv..Ita came. Cleared the long table to put the food, cleared the trolly for drinks and glasses. Showered. Dressed up in an A-line, surprisingly very flattering peach skirt with a small long sleeve black top from China, with beautiful amboidary at the wrist. Went down, sat in the kitchen with Ita to prepare salad, fruits and puddings. (it sounds sooooooo easy..but believe me it was pretty tiring). When everything's done..went up and beautify maself in baby pink head dress. Had heart aching conversations with ma bf and ma sis who both couldnt attend the party. Couldnt hold ma tears. Calmed maself. Put a smile and walk down.

It was just a small party, so only 1 family was invited ( 7 of em including ma grand aunty). The original menu was, Sate, nasi goreng cina, keow teow goreng, nasi impit, salad, fruits, jelly and pudding. But ma bro insisted he wants some bbq, so i took out prawns and sosseges. But it wasnt enough for him. He drove to TESCO, got marinated squids and beef. Not very happy as plan changed. (i cant eat any of that cos just got ma teeth fixed and not advisable by the doc to eat anything hard). but fine by me. Time for..."oh bday cake" i say. Grabbed it from its box from the fridge, place it on a plate, light the 2 big and 2 small candles..and carry em maself to the table..placing it beside ma mom who was on a wheel chair. Ok..now what?

The candles started to melt..and drip on the cake while everyone who gathered at the table apparantly bz with their own thing. Ma dad was bz trying to learn how the heck to snap pictures with his brand new hp. After the whole drama, he tried to start the 'choir' but sang it all wrong...3-4 times! that i started getting annoyed. Before anything..ma bro made such a big fuss that he couldnt find the equipment for his bbq session, ma mom yellin at me to help him search while ma candles melted its way there on the cake. The sad feelings from the 2 conversations i had earlier disturbed ma mind..adding more with what was happening. Cant find the equipments..i got irritated. so did ma bro. Fine. I walked back to the table where ma cake was placed. "Lets sing!" maybe i should have said that. Mayb thigns would have been better if i had said that. But i didnt. I just stood there..with a knife in ma hand..waiting for someone to sing ma bday song. Everyone was just talking and bz with i dunno what but gathering still at the table. Someone started singing..but she end up singing herself that she stopped. Now ma dad's turn.."Happy birthday Aina~~!". what the hell?? No one sings like that..3 times esp when ppl say not to!

I felt annyoed..but tried to control ma emotion. Ita stand on the other side of the table with a camera ready. In the end i turned to ma mom, "Im starting to feel annoyed". So she yelled at the rest to start singing. It was the worst ever bday song choir ive ever heard. I was just soooooooooooooooooooooo sad..i looked down at the cake the whole time..controlling from exploding of frustration. I couldnt hold on any longer. After i blew ma candles..i pull em out and threw em on the table. I walked through the kitchen to a guest room that has an attached bathroom. Locked maself in the toilet, crying. While i was walking there, an aunty said "aina, pasai apa ni?" with the tone *what is ur problem*.

I just cried and cried in the toilet. Heard ita's presence outside the toilet door calling ma name. Heard ma dad entering the room asking for me. Then he went away. I finally came out the toilet after ita closed the guess room door. Sat at the bed end crying. All the hard work i put in for a bday party for MYSELF..with bday cake i bought for MYSELF..dressing up the way i did to please ma parents..throwing a bday party which i didnt even want in the first place. And i cant even get ppl to appreciate any of it..and sing me a pathetic bday song properly.

U know..when i stood in front of the cake..i felt like everything was moving so slowly..all i can hear are mumbles of words..everyone just bz with their ownself. and there i was standing in front of ma cake..with candles that melted it ways down onto the cake... waiting for a sign of appreciation.

I looked down at the cake.. "Happy 22nd PRINCESS Aina". A princess I wasn't.

For the guys out there who thinks that everything doesnt matter...even when u screw up sthing n u know someone will b there to clean up ur mess..do watch The Breakup to give u that lil knock on ur head.

I dont understand y guys especially...do not learn anything from what ever that are happening around them or what they watch. Some r worst..they dont even learn anything from what happened to em in the past. How dumb is that?? For crying out loud..life is not perfect..but there r so many ways n signs out there to make it a better place to live. Learn from what u c and what u hear.

Btw, when ur gf is nice to u..do not take forgranted of her. instead pls show some respect and appreciation. learn to wanna do sthing for her too..rather than expecting her to do everything for u. and when u r at fault..do not wait till the next day to say sorry. how expensive is it to say it? u know u r at fault..say it n mean it! put aside ur ego cos its just gonna destroy u in the end.

It has been a month also..(or more?) since i left MMU. damn...i miss that place so much!!! waaaaaaaaaaaa! :(

Anyways..yup..i tanam anggur..n eat the anggur maself. hehehahahahaha! im in between 1 and 2. to go on being 1..or to risk everything and try adapting to 2. blerrghh! im the type who plans everything ahead. I just never thought ill be experiencing this problem now. Well, bak kata orang.."kita hanya boleh merancang, tp Tuhan tentukan segalanya". Yup...facing that now.

it has been almost a week that i have been under the weather. thats not the worst part..it has been exactly a week that ive had this creative blockage that i cant seem to think of any new design for ma website template nor try to execute anything.

aihhh....

i have exactly 3 weeks to execute a major project on website, minor on TVC, study for final exam on Cyberpreneurship and Basic acct, econs and management. adding salt into this bitter coffee ..im currently under the weather. : God knows how much im suffering rite now!

However, a great mind once told me, "God will only test those He thinks are capable of goin thru it". That statement, i find..is very very strong. For a person who's goin thru a hell of a time rite now, that statement actually puts me on a higher level than where i am. I feel good somehow that im being tested with all this...because i CAN go thru it. i just have to find the way. just like all of u out there.

If u have financial problem..dont give up n just swear ur whole life thru. do sthing about it. like i said before..there are no answers to every questions in life. but there are solutions. so stop whining "y is she born richer than i am???" "y does he always have money in his life n i dont??" because u can never get an answer u want to hear. bottom line...u have to EARN it urself. work for it. it doesnt matter if its financial or relationship or career..or life. God will reward u if u work for it.

Luck doesnt exist without effort...remember that.

Why we can be annoyed easily? For me, i get annoyed when i am in pain and ppl around me just dont seem to understand. But most of the time,im annoyed at ma ownself. Usually when related to work stuff. Like for now, Im annoyed that even tho ive started studying for ma midterm much earlier than anyone else, i still have dificulties remembering and answering the tutorial questions. Im annoyed that, i have to submit my design progress work on Tuesday, n i havent even started on anything major, YET! Im annoyed that im in pain at such wrong timing! Im VERY VERY annoyed rite now that im having terrible flu that everytime i sneeze..ma whole head seems to shake..including ma brains n every information i stored in it.

How i get annoyed at people? When they mind other people's businesses. "How much have u studied?" "Where are u rte now with ur work?" Its like...SHUSHHHHHHHH!!!! does it matter so much??? What..if i am done with everything...ur marks will be lower? For crying out loud..mind ur own business! theres a thin line between "being caring" and "being penyebok". or in other words..busy body..or just plain too competitive. Because when u r being caring... u wont b asking the same stupid question more than once in a day!

ok..clearly im annoyed rite now..thats y im in the mood to write on it. hehehe. I HATE FLU!!!

Wow....it has been ages since i post anything up here. Been damn bz...n i just had to put ma passion on writing aside.
graduating soon...VERY soon. wow..working life. Am i facing that first..or continue with masters? Not so sure yet..

well...LIFE...ppl say that there are no answers to every questions in life. true..i cant deny that. but what ppl tend to miss out is that...there are solutions to everything. but they mite b solutions that are not to ur favour.

i think thats a pretty strong statement n i dont have to accompany it with an example to make it clear. :)

good luck to everyone out there who searches for solutions in their life.. :)