I finally understand the feeling of being left behind. All this while when Aini grumble about how things r so different after I left, I was like "huh? is it..? mcm biasa je..." But what I didnt realise was, I left. I had new environment. I got a white canvas. I could paint anything. The new place has no old memories. It's the opposite for her.

So i made the conclusion, leaving is easier than being left behind. Being a quite-independent person that I am, I always leave. Tp now I realise, when being left behind its even more difficult. When Aze left for Russia, I didnt feel so much cos i left Penang too for KL.

I dunno how ma colleague Nini go thru her days as her husband is in Dubai for the past 2 years. Im sure she feels more pain compared to him. He starts a new life there with new memories. As for her, everywhere she went with him before will bring memories back. Sedihnya...

I hate it when friends leave. Dulu when Mas, ma awesome crazy galfren left TM I could feel the pain of losing her. Adeline, my super great boss left TM pun I nangis. I hate changes. Worst is I hate to face the memories they left behind with me with where I am. Now Dennis's turn. He has been my bestfriend for the past 2 years since I've been slaving ma ass in TM. We do everything together. Ish. It's difficult!!!

But i guess thats life la. Tp to the leavers, fyi...it hurts triply for those you left behind compared to what you feel. I know cos now Ive felt both sides.