If i can write and appreciate efforts from ma friends, i think it's just fair for my sis to receive the recognition too.

For the past 2 weeks, I was on MC for a week, an leave on 2 days. I couldn't drive nor eat properly cos of ma right hand (read prev posts). So ma kind lil sis stayed at ma place for 2 weeks to take care of me. From dishes to ironing to medicine to driving. She will send me off to work in the morn (since Denn wasnt around), and then head off to Gombak for class and later fetch me back at 5.30pm. How great is that??

I have to admit, because she was ma sis, i took a lil forgranted of her :P. Sometimes ill be too lazy to even get up to get a glass of water. But i know ill get one by just doing ma baby voice. :D Hehehe. Sorry babe!!!

But the weeks was awesome. It couldnt end in a better way. We ended it with a trip to Langkawi for vacation and it was really fun! :D

So from the bottom of ma heart, thank you ma lil sister who is ma awesome angel guardian. :) HUGS!

I think it is time for us Malaysians, specifically Malays to revamp our mentality!

I know ma friends out there are so gonna laugh at me for discussing this topic, but ey..try to see the point im tryin to point out ok!

I watch AF this year. Yes yes..SURPRISE! *rolling eyes* Anyways, for 6 weeks, the first 2 positions were dominated by 2 students; aizat and dafi..who are both out now. Aizat could sing most genres. Dafi's skilss are pretty limited but his advantage was his look. But what happened? why are they both out when everyone predicted that they will definitely be in the finals?? What was Malaysians thinking? Were they voting based on vocals or personality or family background?

After reading Utusan newspaper just now, I came to know that both of them are from so-called-wealthy family, simply cos their fathers are both "Datuk"s. What's the big deal? Seriously. I dont understand why community judge Datuk's family members as if they are spoilt and dont deserve to win sthing on their own just because their family can afford that for them. Ey, hello...open ur eyes and mind pls! The datuk here is the father, not them! Give them a chance to work their way up on their own! And by the way for u numb nuts out there, Datuk-ship doesnt come with a RM1million cheque; just if u were wondering.

I think its time that we Malaysians revamp the way we think. Stop judging ppl based on their background. So what if they come from a wealthy family or not. As the Muslims say it, "if memang rezeki, tak lari ke mana". If God had planned that for u, dont worry, it yours, as long as u work hard and dont give up! Nothing comes easily. Those datuks..do you think they got that title one shiny day and it just fell from the sky? No! Everything is hard work.

And to those of you who are freakingly spoilt and just happen to be 'VIP's kids..cut it out! You are ruining the good name of others too.

And Malaysians...lets think of quality.

Cheers!

After 3 visit to the clinic, and 2 visits to da hospital specialist from Pantai and Subang Med Centre..baru la dapat mengesan what the heck is wrong with ma right hand.

Tennis elbow, or lateral epicondylitis, is the most common injury in patients seeking medical attention with the complaint of elbow pain. Exactly what causes tennis elbow is unknown, but it is thought to be due to small tears of the tendons that attach the muscles of the forearm to the arm bone at the elbow joint.

The muscle group involved, the wrist extensors, function to cock the wrist back. Specifically, the extensor carpi radialis brevis, has been implicated in causing the symptoms of tennis elbow.

Thats what I have. Ma hand still hurts..but it was said to continue hurting just for the next 5 days. If continues, then I should go back to the doc lah. Kena inject!!! Damn sakit! Blue black terus :P

So jaga la ur hands properly. Things can happen anytime, anywhere.

Im in pain right now and i should so avoid typing..but i just have to write this one.

I was taken care of by an angel yesterday. Who would think, this crazy friend of mine that I just knew for the past 7 months would take care of me like I'm family?? Those who have given me that kindda treatment consist of ma family members n very very close friends only. So i guess Izzati..u fall into that category :)

She HATES doing dishes..like me la. Tp yesterday, she not only COOKED dinner for me; which by the way was SUPERB..i tambah 5 kali tuh!!!..she even did the dishes!! no wait..thats not all, she even ironed ma office attire this morning! letak ubat n bandage ma wrist semua.

so from the bottom of ma heart..thank u very much izzati!

n for those who judge her, u guys seriously kena get to know her. what an amazing friend she is! :)

I have no idea what happened to ma right wrist!!!!!

Yesterday itself it started hurting d..but I thought it was nothing. Today it hurt even more, and by the time I wanted to start work, I couldnt turn ma wrist anymore.
Damn it...

Went to the clinic..the doc bandaged ma wrist..gave me some medication...n we r hoping it will just get well soon.

Its not getting any better so far. I still cant turn ma wrist. I cant even feed ma food well...how the hell to drive???

Thank God denn around in the office...guess ill just tumpang him back..n hopefully i can drive ma car that ill be leaving overnight here lah.. :( huhuhu

Old news..i went to Sarawak last week..for the very first timmeeee! But i went on work purposes, so i didnt get to explore much except shopping at water front n short visits to the cat statues around Kuching.

First thing I said after 5mins drive in the cab after landing in Kuching.."Apesal nampak macam Subang je??" Hahahahahahhaahaa!!

I didnt really see the whole beauty ppl been talking about Kuching..cos seriously it looked like any other tows in Semenanjung that ive been to. But one thing that made it different..the PEOPLE.

I was there for 3 days..and I enjoyed all the conversations I had with the Sarawakians there. It doesnt matter la if they r TM employees, or the bellboy..or the shop keeper or cab driver..they r seriously very friendly! They welcome you and treat you like you are a friend. :) I was so comfortable with this girl from a souvenir shop that I decided to buy most of the souvenirs from her! :D

I would definetely go to Sarawak again..but maybe not Kuching town area..rural a lil so I can appreciate and experience the beauty and nature in Sarawak that has been its specialty for ever!

Everyday is a learning process. If you don't believe that, sit down in a quiet place, calm yourself down, then think of the days that has passed. It's nearly 7pm, and I'm still in the office, waiting for Shafiq to fetch me back. I'm done with my TM work, my freelance work, so I have the time to think and write ma blog la :D hehe

Yesterday, I had another emotional roller coaster. I don't wanna elaborate on it but all I can think of is that I'm glad I handled it pretty well and managed to find solution to it.

Rule no. 1, do not just complain with no actions to support it. If you pour your broken heart to someone for DAYS pun..and you dont do anything to mend it besides that, it will still be broken and you will feel like shit even longer than you should.
That's just an example la of course.

Like today, I attended a 2 hour meeting. Pok pek pok pek..this and that..at the end of the day, it was just a plain discussion of complains..no solution! Why? cos no focus!

So focus on your life. Everyday is a learning process. Just because today is a lousy day..and u feel like its the end of your life, tomorrow might be a bright sunny day instead. Of course you can't just sit and wait for good things to fall into your laps. Work it!

I'm glad I took the risk to ma solution yesterday. I'm glad the other party is co-operative. I'm very glad that God at the end of the day, calm me down. :)

I laugh thinking of how lousy i treated myself and my close friends just because I couldnt control ma emotion when it got out of hand for a while. It was stupid! Who else can control you if not yourself? Don't let others control you! You are the owner of yourself!

I learn today that I'm stronger than I think I am. I learn that I learn from the past. And I learn that, it is ok to be stupid at times, as long as you learn why u it happened and not to repeat it. :)

What have you learned today?

Arhhh! I hate it when ma emotion is beyond ma control! How is that even possible weih?? If im not controlling it..then who is??

I realized ma biggest weakness ever!!! All this while I thought I'm not it..but I guess I am after all. I trust ppl too easily! As an advertiser, I among all should know better that you can never trust words per say. But I dunno why I do! Not on advertisings, but word of mouth. Not just from any mouth, but from friends. Even if I doubt your words, at the end of the day I might just accept it. WHY??? I am either that or I can be the total opposite; what ever comes out of your mouth are questioned. Especially when it involves feelings. What is wrong with me???

Hopefully I think I'm all that plainly cos I'm emotional right now..huhuhu. :(

First impression people have on me (from what they say of course) is 'sombong'. Haha...I cant blame em for feeling that way actually. :P I'm the least friendly person u've ever met! If u dont approach me, most probably u wont hear it from me. But then again, to clear the air, it's not cos im sombong or think highly about myself. It's plainly because im SHY! (stop laughing!!!!) Even though its embarrassing to admit it, but it's true!

Anyways, other than that, ppl usually paint the picture that i'm an independent, a leader, strong and opinionated girl. Ermm...i won't deny totally. I do consider myself independent at times, but I can also be very dependent, and I find that as a weakness. I have an obsession to get things right, that's why at the end of the day i end up being the leader :P Erm..strong? Verbally maybe. Hahahahaha! Oh i'm full of theories and metaphors so i agree that im opinionated.

But what your might not know is that, i can be the most pampered and spoilt girl ever..EVER! hahahahaha! I will say i'm ma dad's favourite, it's pretty obvious and ma mom agrees. :P Ma sis calls him 'papa or abah' ma bro calls him 'papa'. i call him 'dadddddyyyyyy!" You get what i mean now dont u? ;)


Ma colleagues might not agree with this, but some ppl actually find me VERY funny. Ask ma sis and her friends. I hate bimbos..but imitating em often had turned me into 1 too at times! Shafiq and Aini would totally agree to that :P

To most people, Im the innocent, naive girl. To ma sis im a pervert! Hahahahahahhaaha!

So i guess it's not so much about split personality. It's just how you are with who you are comfortable with.
Even though my sister is younger than me, she calls me 'baby' cos im manja. She holds ma hand when we shop. But in the office, ma colleague Izzati actually calls me 'mummy'!

I think the only one who sees all side of me will be Shafiq. :)

So it's ok to have many characters, as long as all of it is YOU and not anyone else. :)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......finally...finally!!!! I can finally call ma house a home! :D

The sofa i ordered a week ago finally reached 2 days ago. GORGEOUS! Got it for a pretty good deal, and it looks double the price i paid! :D

Went to IKEA last night to shop for some floor lamp, drawers and such to beautify ma home :)

Hoh...i just love ma place so much!! Can't wait to get the frames of beautiful photographs shot by shafiq up on the wall :D

Hohoho, i never thought that one day I will have difficulties translating "legend" in Malay!!

Today I was asked to translate a short paragraph from English to Malay. And then I realized, me...the best BM student in high school had lost the language skill i once proud of! Ma mind is so rusty! It took me more than 15mins to translate..and I wasn't even that confident about the result cos i knew i could do better.

Lack of practice. Lately been writing and communicating most of the time in English..ini la jadinya. :P Jangan lupa jati diri sudah :P hehehehe

So if you want me to translate Malay to English..buzz me anytime. But if English to Malay..emm..dont worry..I'll get ma mom's (who is a superb bm teacher) help
hehehehe

Hasty wind…
United fate with time
To decide the ending
Of this forbidden journey

Parch petals on the ground
Dehydrated well left unattended

Feelings changed
In a blink of an eye...

Anticipated
Expected
But was this what we wanted?

The knight I once knew
Turned out to be just another fighter…
Nothing special…
At least not anymore
Turned out to be
Just another battle

My admiration flew away
My faith ran away
Our journey have changed
Different ships
Different routes

If only I could still see
The old shadow that accompanied me
Left me smiling
At the window…
In my heart…
Even in my dreams

The old you
That I knew
Vanished in the thin new air

Not you
That I wish
It is your shadow
That I miss...

(Written by Anonymous)

Today i had lunch in Mid Valley with ma awesome bestfriend Eeleng. First time driving to MidV alone...n freaking lazy to park..so i spent 8bucks for jockey parking instead :P what a brat!

Anyways, it has been quite some time since the last time i met her. Miss ya babe!!!
Being the talkative gals that we are, we didnt give a minute of break to fill each other with what has been happening with each other's life.

Ma point of writing this blog was that...since today is V-day (yes Muslims do not celebrate it)..love is so filling the air n all...i just wanna share some insights this thing call love. (hahaha i sounded like an expert la pulak :P)

Love. Infatuation. Crush. Everything is related to this thing called FEELINGS. Feelings can be helpful and a bitch too at the same time. Trust me..i know! When you are not able to control your feelings..it might just lead u to trouble. But if you take ur intuition as a sign to avoid from doin something stupid, feelings will be considered as helpful. If you know how to express your feelings right, you might just brighten another soul's day.

My dearest friend just got out of a relationship a few months back. Not surprisingly, she's still not over it. Wanna know why? There were no proper closure. By saying so, closure is not a figure of speech of "I think our relationship has come to an end." or "I think its better we stay friends." or "I've found someone else. Im sorry".
No. Those statements are NOT closure to a relationship.

Always consider the POST-breakup. Cos that's the hardest part. I came to realize that, after breaking up, the only way to move on and get that CLOSURE is to know if what u were feeling at that moment of post breakup is being felt by ur ex too. Am i right? Just stop and think. When you breakup with someone, wether it was just a crush thing...or a 4 months relationship..or 4 years relationship...u will always think.. "Does he/she misses me?" "how is he/she feeling about it"

All you've got to know to move on was that. For eg....I know ma dear friend will be able to move on stronger if she knew what her ex were thinking or feeling about the whole thing, wether its the same as hers or not. In that way, she will know for sure if there's hope for them to re-unite, or turn friends or permanent break off where they hate each other. It sucks u know..after a break up..missing someone else. But it will hurt less if u know he/she is actually feeling the same way..hurting or suffering the same as u r. if he/she is not also, u will still be able to move on easily as ull know for sure what u meant to them.

So my suggestions to the couples who just ended their relationship, it is ok to tell ur partner that u do think of her/him even after u decided to end it. By saying so, this has to come from the party who DECIDED to end it, not the victim. Trust me, it will help them move on ;) If you think you dont have the guts to tell that yourself, get someone to do it for you. OR..there's this phrase "action speaks louder than words"? :P Keep it mild.

(however, do not LIE just to make them feel better. I dunno if it that works for u, but i would totally not appreciate that la. take note of that future heart breakers! :p)

Good luck!

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

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Do you realize that? I was sitting in Winter Warmers for lunch with ma sis, and then it hit me that, language is sexist! Being a student of English language and Literature her self, she admits that it's very true.

Ok. I may know little about this, and my example might seem shallow, but bare with me as i have a point to make. :p

Have you noticed that many labels ends with 'man'? Example, fireman..policeman? Maybe long time ago, no women were them, but the generations have changed. Why cant the language evolve too? Ma sis said that most of them now prefer to address it as "fire fighter" or "police officers" to generic the title.

Another good example, "bitch", "slut" and many many more. Why are curses revolve around women? "Mother f....". Why?? Why cant it be "Father f..."? Why are there no terms for guys as bitches or sluts? Is it because it is ok for them to do what so ever they want, but if women do it they are being labeled such way? Come on...thats just not fair!

We are in a very modern age now. We either should DROP all the name calling or equalized it by creating specific ones for guys too! hahahahaha

Ive been wanting to write something on ma blog for dayssss! But i never get to decide on 1 specific topic as there are so many things in ma head.
But after reading on "Student conned of RM 4800" in The Star, I finally decided to write on it.

1st rule in life. There is NO such thing as EASY money. You have to WORK to earn money. Yeah yeah you smarty pants! If you are gonna throw the "I get moneh easily from ma parents..no hard work what so ever" in ma face, keep in mind your parents are the one who has to WORK HARD to earn that for u. Bottom line, it doesn't come easily. And if it does, there must be a catch somewhere.

Vanessa Lee was conned by a legitimate corporation from Macao, saying that she won RM160,000 just by answering a question through a phone call she received days before that. The trick? Pay 3% of the amount, supposedly said as a rule by the bank, before she can receive her prize. Convinced by a friend from Macao who confirmed that it is a legitimate corporation and that her name is indeed mentioned on the corporation's website as a winner, she finally paid em that, just to find out later on that she has to sign up as a member, which cost RM 60k or they will forfeit the prize!

See...told you. There's no such thing as easy or free money in life.

My rule towards business; the best business is to start with 0 modal. Thinking I'm crazy? Maybe you should start reading more :P

And I'm never persuaded or convinced by people who starts a conversation on business with "you will get this much of $$$!" Business is not just about the revenue u get. Its also about the passion, and the hard work..the product, the process and what not! Yes at the end of the day, you want to be earning out of it. But if you only concentrate on that issue, you will never enjoy the process or appreciate it and you will fall HARD if your business fails.

So to you people out there who get calls or emails or what not about such thing..like "my very rich father passed away and he told me to donate my money to a Malaysian" kindda thing..or "answer a question and you might just enjoy shopping in DKNY with RM 60,000 worth of prize!" crap...pls use ur common sense before you jump off your seat excitedly.

And if you were to start a business, get 2nd, 3rd and 4th opinions from people who have experienced business world. Dont ask your potential boss ofcourse. Ask others, neutral people. No buyers. So you will know what you will face later on. Dont be blinded by the $$$, but see it in a big picture.

Good luck!

Cheers!

Gentleman is defined as a man of refinement. Those men i had lunch with were no where near there!!!

We arrived at our lunch table for 13 heads in Hilton PJ after more than 30mins of waiting for the guys. Dah la tak punctual!! The 'best' part, was when everyone who was sitted trying to decide who should go get their food first.

"Ladies first.." says the guys..

Tp before we gals could even get our asses off the chair..we turned and look at the other end of the table..n the guys were all GONE! So-called gentlemen!!!!

But the super best part of the lunch trip was the 2 SUPER-COOL-'AUNTIES'!!!! actually..they r not aunties la...older than me by 6 years je :P hehehe
But these 2 babes are the coolest chickas ever man!!! Even though they are married...they r just..so cool lah! You gotta hang around with em..then u'll know what i mean. :D loud, noisy, friendly, makan banyak, smart, everything la..all in 1! :D U guys r the best la Nurul & Aisha!

Thanx ladies! Had a super great time..not just cos the food was awesome..but u guys were too!! :D

I have an unbearable weakness. I cant look and watch my beloved ones or friends in trouble or in pain or sad. But, I don't know how to help! People say that, sometimes the company is more than enough. How far is that true?

I think I inherited this from ma dad. He is a guy that LOVES to help others. I guess that's y God loves him so much. I think he holds on to the concept where what goes around comes around. When you help someone, God will help you too. :) I'll be more than lucky if I inherited at least 1/10 of that lovely character of his.

But due to human nature, most people take advantage/for granted of others if that person is kind and understanding towards em. Isn't it true? I maself have came across people who treated me such way when I'm a little nice to them. Y? Please...appreciate the extra attention you get from someone. Do not take ppl for granted. You are lucky you know to get that special treatment!

Anyways, writing this blog cos one of ma dear friend is a lil tensed up with his work. I do hope that you are aware that there's solution around the corner, its just a matter of approaching it at the right time with the right support and luck. :)

Every dark cloud has a silver lining. Believe in yourself ;)

Today, I received a call from my lecturer/associate dean from MMU. "Your interview is on the 16th of February. Are you still interested?"

Sometimes it's hard when you have options to pick from in life. When I first came to TM, I didn't have many choices. I was placed in Sales in Kedah. But since I made early preparation and moved to KL, I worked ma ass off to get placement here in KL during ma 1st 3 days as a working adult. Finally got a placement in Global Business, Product Marketing, in TM HQ..in Menara TM.

It's ma 4th month here now. I'm finally..slowly getting the grip about ma work. I'm even gonna take tuition classes with ma boss starting next month ..every friday after work..just so I can get better understanding and learn faster. Surprisingly, even though most of the time I'm considered a fast learner, I'm not in Global Business. I'm doing numbers and accounts..and queries..and the worst..BILLING! I'm not interested in ANY!


The call I received today seems to be God's answer to ma prayers, of hoping to be able to work with sthing Im good at and have passion in. But, it means leaving TM. Can i do that?

People who knows me well will know I'll pick formal dinner against party. I can be considered quite formal. I enjoy dressing up in white collar to work. But ofcourse that doesnt mean Ive forgotten ma faided jeans and my should-get-a-new-pair-of-shoe-already Converse shoe. :P

I love the working environment here. Despite the fact that im doin sthing i didnt learn for the past 4 years, or even anything Im interested with...i find it challenging, in a good way. Because, I believe that behind every cloud, there's a silver lining. Im learning about the other perspective of a business organization that others dont see. Its difficult ofcourse, but its a learning process. I'm not saying I love it. But, I think I can go through it. I take it as a challenge to prove to maself that I can not only survive doing what i dont enjoy doing, but be really good with it. And the potential for me to rise up is higher here.

But at the same time, I would love to be doing sthing im good at, and have deep passion in. Branding. MMU can offer me that. I can teach and pass my knowledge about sthing I love to the next generation. But..where else can I go after becoming a lecturer? Ass. dean? Dean? Then? I feel like ..its a secured job for someone who just love it the way it is. I dont want to see my days as a routine..

But, there are so many things to consider to make this decision...too many that it aches ma head and heart to think. What should I do? Should I leave TM and be a tutor in MMU or stay on in TM and work in a field I dont enjoy in.

I have 3 weeks to decide the choice of ma life...

I always had this thing for metaphor and such. But it never crossed ma mind that a book..or specifically the book you hold and read tells your character!

Ma boss said that she assumed that I am from a wealthy background based on the book I brought and read on ma first day here in TM. When she told me that..i was like "WHAT???" Yeah i know what you are wondering..what could the book be? It wasn't like I was reading "How to manage your overloaded money". I was reading on branding! A branding book..with a super twisted cover which might lead you to think it's somewhat a SCARY storybook! :P

Then it lead me to wonder even deeper into this. It's actually true you know. You are what you read. It shows your character. It actually builds your character too! If you research those gossipers, i bet you will find LOTSSS of tabloids on their book shelf. :P Walk into any CEO office, and just browse through the books on his shelf. You will know what made him what he is.

So, last night before I shut ma eyes to bed..I was just thinking about my case. Every month i spend moneh on CLEO, Herworld, Female, Businessweek, Hot, F1 magazine, The Edge, T3. Ma books are dominated by 'design genre'. I have a handful on Islam, and some on psychology.

So what am I?